days like today

everyone has thoughts about life....
that it's a blessing,
a gift.
that it can be taken at any moment.
i'm not sure about everyone else
but these thoughts about life fill my being.
i have felt like this for as long as i can remember
but i lost all control the very moment i laid eyes on my certain baby boy.
these feeling are constantly stirring in my soul.
life as we know it can change in the blink of an eye
and it makes my sensitive heart want to grasp onto every beautiful moment and never let go...

there are days when i'm more sensitive about life than others

days like today.....

we were at the park bright and early.
it smelled of wet leaves
and the morning sun was just breaking through the clouds.
the slides were covered in morning dew and yesterday's rain
makai asked for a push on the swing...
we counted to 3 and pushed that swing as high as it would go.
i sat back and watched as he fed the hungry ducks
they were saddened when they learned breakfast was broken sticks and not yesterday's bread.
we saw the last of the leaves falling from the trees
while soaking up the sun on what was sure to be the last warm day of fall.
as we prepared to leave, makai waved....
"bye bye ducks"
"bye bye park"
"bye bye tree"

my son lives for today. he has no sense of time nor does he think about what tomorrow may bring.it truly is a beautiful thing.

so for those feelings that consume me.
may they not bring fear or worry of tomorrow.
but may they allow me to feel more, to see more and to live for today...for all that it is, and all that it can be.

waving "bye bye tree"