Nate and I have been trying for a year this month to have a baby.....the sight of these negative pregnancy tests are all too familiar! I think the cashier at CVS knows me by name. Maybe I should just start buying them in bulk at Costco! Every month I hope and pray that this is the month. I know some may say it's only been a year but to me this has been the longest year of my life...waiting and hoping, trying not to worry, trying to trust God and his perfect timing. I guess I just fear the unknown....how long will it take, is their something seriously wrong, what if we never get pregnant. I start my first round of Clomid this month and all though I am hopefull I am not getting my hopes up...if that makes any sense. It just seems like it's always on my mind. I mean, I am reminded of it everywhere...I swear pregnant women follow me around the grocery store, and make it a point to take their adorable babies for their daily walk right by my house everyday. I guess all I can do is continue to trust God and wait patiently for our precious gift...this one is out of my control.
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